Sunday, December 31, 2006
breakfast + lunch = branch ? well.. todae i only had brancher? -.- [ branch + dinner = brancher] skip dinner. =X yuppie, im feeling hungry now.. new year eve, and.. im here starving -.- yup, very very nice rite? its kind of a gd experience, to spend new yr eve watching vcd.. and.. blogging here.. -.- it feel gd to be rotting like tat, and suddenly receive a msg tat says there`s training on wed.. -.- the first dae of skool.. thansx seh O_O~ shall go back to my vcd. and some left over hw. and pass my new yr like tat.. skool is starting, the hell is gonna begin.. happie new year~
im emo @11:10 PM;
Saturday, December 30, 2006
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im so emo~........wu liao -.- yesh. wo emo-MO dao hen wu liao.. don uds why so emo-MO~
im emo @10:40 PM;
你知道你对我造成的伤害有多大吗？
你知道因为你，我活得有多么猜疑吗？
一切都因你。。
如果可以，
我想开始。
如果可以，
我想接受。
如果可以，
我想记住。
因为你，
我开始思考了。
我们之间的未来。
全世界都知道我的嬉皮笑脸。
你知道，你察觉，我的不愉快了吗？
我开始了解雨天。
那是个能让我自我反省的一天。
那是个能让我了解自我的一天。
说忘了，
是对我最大的惩罚。
请你不要。
说走了，
是对我最大的酷刑。
请你不要。
说拜拜，
是对我而言的死刑。
请你不要。对你而言，也许不算什么。。 但，对我来说，确实晴天霹雳。 我带着猜疑，你抱住期待，我们是这样面对彼此。
im emo @1:48 AM;
Friday, December 29, 2006
wahaha! due to the irritating eq.. lol.. i cant post seh.. finally now can blog ler..! =] has been kind of busy for this 2 days.. vcd.. =X and.. going out.. hwk still waiting for me to complete.. haha..
*thurs*
was a dae of laughters.. haha.. slept ar 3+ the nite before, woke up at 8? wth seh! den cle msg me to cancel the movie, jus becos he very tireD? felt like killing him.. bud didn.. so met up.. and.. as usual, im first to reach.. =X forgive them ba..
mingle, cle and me.. watch night at the museum, the earliest movie.. starting at 1035? lol.. so long nvr watch movie ler.. its worth the money narh tat movie.. and the time also.. super funny norh the show..
dumb dumb .. i wan gum gum~ -.- lol..
yesh, i think its nc culture seh.. we are the noisest.. in the cinema, nc kids are the easiest to spot..=X luff very loud seh.. i also dono why.. hahaha! the 3 of us de laughters can be heard VERY CLEARLY! lol.. some parts, other ppl don uds why funny de, we also luff.. think cos, they no sense of humouR? LOL =X and we are overflowing of humour. WAHAHAHA! den.. jiu go meet my classmates at white sands.. for our copying-hwk session.. haha =X tats how united we are! lol. got, kel, ben tan, ben chew, alex, ken, shawn, jc, xh.. so we copy copy copy.. den they go lan -.-.. i join them shortly after.. watch them lan.. =.- its such A BORING THING TO DO NARH! dono why guys like lan so much, kns seh. =X i almost doze off.. cos i sit on floor look at them play.. ate my hei mee.. FINALLY seh.. lol.. crave for 1 dae ler.. lol.. felt really happie, cos there was lotsa laughters.. when frens are ard, there will be laughters? rite? lol.. *todae* hahaha~ whole dae vcd.. until dinner at PP~ my mum ki siao seh.. suddenly feel like eating black pepper crab.. so eat eat eat! i wan on diet de neh! bud bo bian my mum liddat, i hab to eat. =X ok i noe i finding excuse~ lol.. went to buy bra -.- den sth stupid happen.. my mum ask me go try so she tell the auntie the size.. [and i shall not disclose it here-.- ] auntie start to "observe" my chest.. and : where got so big? wensx roll her eyes.. and : wear sports bra got wrong meh!! auntie: orh~ 难怪.. WTF! kns! den i go try.. den the auntie, still don believe seh! den she come and see look look.. den.. can lar, this size can.. WTF! =X im irritated.. ok im being random -.-
im emo @5:39 PM;
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
haha! im a super multitask person msn, sms, vcd and HWK~ lol.. =X bo bian, mus do hwk ler.. so.. my blog hab to be on diet.. jus like me.. =X cos i can imagine alex they all de smirk.. lol.. during the first pe.. =( hao ba.. i go cont my multitask.. haha.. =)
im emo @2:46 AM;
Monday, December 25, 2006
HOHO! MERRY XMAS!~ this yr de xmas, very busy seh O_O! and also fruitful? lol. got chocolate, got pressie, got cards, got sms, got wishes.. thansx wors.. esp, jq, ben, tam, peishan and shengyang.. for the gifts and card.. oh btw, i said i will disclose wad i bought for the class exchange, its a pair of, spongebob squarepants BOXER! lol.. tam and ben, hab succeed in making me guilty.. for not getting them pressie. haha.. =X went out with them to bugis.. meant to be some shopping? and end up to be shoppping? LOL! =X yeah, we comb the entire bugis village.. and i got several rewards.. haha~ the salesgal there, all quite stingy.. nvr give ALOT of discounts.. so bad -.- means got narh, jus not alot.. lol.. den.. hungry ler, went to.. there to eat steamboat.. ok narh, not bad.. and its so fun to eat with them -.- omg i cant imagine ben can eat more than me, despite me not eating lunch and breakfast before tat! O_O! yesh we eat alot.. and very long.. 15 bucks.. =] can narh, not bad narh.. haha.. shall tok abt my rewards todae.. 1. tam de pressie.2. a grey top. [ im soon gonna be a zebra ler.. alwaes buy line shirt -.- ] 3. 2 pairs of jeans4. bloated stomach 5. ben de pressie.. 6. full of satisfaction..yeah! lol.. really mus thansx them seh.. haha.. im guilty.. eu all succeed ler.. haha.. THANSX PPL! lol.. muacks? lol.. -.-
im emo @9:26 PM;
hohoho~ xmas is here~ lol.. went out with alex, ken, xh and jq.. on my way there, WA LAO! i super angry seh.. this bangla, wan let me hab his seat narh! which is the.. for ppl who nids more than eu seat! mayb he think i too fat ler? O_O WTF! was squeezing at orchard.. instead of a turkey meal for xmas, i had MAC!-.- again.. macnuggets.. expected.. upsize.. BUD no 4 mayo, only got 3.. alex ask me jian fei.. WTF =X~ OH ya mus sae this.. at taka outside, got some xmas carol singing.. den got ask ppl volunteer.. we sabo xh.. den he went up and sang jingle bells.. and was awarded with 2 balls tat mayb he lack or sth? LOL.. we were all luff-in damn loudly.. cheering also.. also got some ppl help cheer and luff ALOT.. amg chio also alot.. haha.. more and more ppl at orchard, DAMN SIAN! went to vivo find xy and kel~ lol.. dey at mng work O_o.. den, went to the rooftop.. play water-.- AND ALEX DE BAG drop into the water! AND MY CAM IS IN IT! KNN! =X hais.. the cam still can take pic.. bud.. hao xiang, flash and.. lcd spoil? HAIS! i got nth to sae seh.. =( yewhong,wilson, lionel, ah ma, li lin came along also.. played dai dee.. played with those kind of spray cans of foam.. keep kena target by alex.. den went home.. saw.. km and bx.. saw lena.. yeah.. merry xmas.. ok i sian diao due to my spoilt cam.. hais.. dono wad to do.. hope it will recover miracly? hais! ! ! actually.. didn noe it was spoilt.. when i started blogging.. halfway thru, i go check.. den become so sad..
im emo @1:28 AM;
Saturday, December 23, 2006
time for some emo-MO~ lol.. was kind of emo while watching the ghostbuster movie ytd nite.. I HOPE EU ALL CAN STOP READING NOW. COS I THINK THERE WILL BE ALOT OF CANNOT-BE-SEEN DE WORDS LATER..I ACTUALLY VERY EMO ONE, BUDDEN!! NOW SUPER ANGRY! I WANNA EAT PPL ALREADY! URGH!!!! EEK! ! ! I CAN ONLY SAE TAT EU ARE FCUKING PRO! EVEN FEELINGS ALSO WANNA COPY.. HAIS.. WHILE IM SAYING THIS, MAYB I PUKE ALOT OF BLOOD LER.. -.- I FEEL DAMN FREAKING SAD FOR EU.. WHY ARE EU FOLO-ING THE WAY OTHER PPL LIVE? AND IF EU THINK IM TOKING ABT EU, PLS DO STH~ COS.. I REALLY DON LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON SABO ME TO TIO DEPRESSION SEH.. I TREAT EU AS FREN, DATS WHY I DON WANNA CONFRONT EU! I DON WAN MAKE EU THINK IM SO FREAKING "XIAO QI" OR WAD.. BUD ITS TOO MUCH!! URGH! THIS IS SO MADDENING! IM GONNA EAT PPL ALREADY! FCUK SEH.. KNN! I WAN BAO ZHA LE NARH! MY EMO-MO ANOTHER DAE DEN WRITE NARH.. NA BEI!
im emo @9:47 PM;
Friday, December 22, 2006
URGH!! I HATE MYSELF SEH! why i keep liddat, wtf! im feeling so terrible now!
dreamt AGAIN! of her.. this is like 4th time this month.. knn seh! of her, and also the tkd camp.. think tats wad pressurize me?
rou ask me, to don b so upset, and treasure ppl ard me.. those who went pass me, jus let it be..
well , its not like i don wanna let it be.. i also don like liddat de me.. dreams cant be controlled.. not i don wanna control.. hais..
im emo @11:12 AM;
Thursday, December 21, 2006
im emo @11:54 PM;
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
hmm.. a warning for all.. todae`s post is gonna be very very emo.. so.. don wanna get influence, jiu bu yao read le ba..
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so ti ki for wad.. i sae don read le rite?! haiyoyo..
hmm.. dreamt of her this morning.. of.. us.. 和好.. 再成为朋友.. ya, and i woke up.. feeling damn sad.. damn disappointed.. why mus i alwaes be like tat.. ?
why cant eu jus give me tat lil bit of concern?
施舍给我好吗？
怜惜我一点可以吗？
我连那种要你看看我一眼的勇气都没有。。
何况是再和你成为朋友。。
在那刚强的外表下的我，你是否见过？
我好不希望自己成为这样子。。
但，
我已无法控制自己的思绪。。
我并不是想要逼你。。
只是把我的想法写下来。。
婉嫣，你是我一个不小心遗失在过去的朋友。。 ppl alwaes ask me to look ahead..its not like im stagnant and keep looking at the past..its not like im asking for some pity.. its not as tho, she`s my only fren.. bud.. its jus.. memories.. tat really hurts.. ok sua, don wan tok abt her ler.. as for others, i wud sae.. im glad to hab known eu guys.. like yannie, i missed the daes we chiong down to cp for food.. =X hahaha! like cle, we alwaes.. stayed in skool till evening.. for stupid stuff.. haha.. like tam, we alwaes go shopping till legs yao duan diao~ and the list goes on and on~ bud.. look at how eurekans seem to look united, bud actually wasnt.. or was it me, who wasnt with them..? they are jus scattered in small grps.. im glad to hab came to mj and noe o6s211~ the class filled with lauhters.. and full of nonsense.. haha.. =X every one has a unique identity~ tho still not everyone bonded tgt.. budden, got half of it, already buay pai ler~ 我说过。。 我是友情的失败者。。 perhaps, 自我中心。。是我失败的原因。。 但，我不觉得那是种错，只是你们无法接受。。 自私自利。。 目中无人。。 那是我。。 若你这么想的话，你与我的友情也是个失败。
im emo @11:21 PM;
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
im shag! lol.. after so much walking.. up and down.. searching for the christmas gift to exchange with the rest..
meeting them at bedok.. KNS! first time i so damn early when meeting them.. ALL LATE seh.. hahaha~ ok, den ken came, xh came, alex came.. off we go to find our lunch.. hahaha.. ate ban mian, finish half a bowl jiu damn full ler.. dono why also.. nvm.. alex keep kb sae we waste food, cos.. ken and xh also nvr finish.. haha..
dey all BAD SEH! initially sae.. wan go parkway nia.. so im dressed so shabbily again.. in the end, sae go SUNTEC KNN LA!
THROW FACE.. =(
walk from raffles city.. to suntec.. to.. marina sq.. at ea place, we almost comb it.. haha.. and.. almost killed me.. hahaha!
i bought the pressie ler.. shall enclose it on christmas.. haha.. cos.. mus mystery abit..
alex is HORRIBLE! keep hitting my head... KNS! ok i shall admit, im jus bad..
jiechong DAMN late narh, late for 4-5 hrs? lucky we nvr wait for him.. poor benchew.. wait wait wait.. hahaha *shake head*
ok, ate.. grilled fish.. den.. kope alex de apple tart.. hahahah =X this is so fattening man.. =X i don wanna get a shock when PE starts..jus now at bus home de shi hou, WA PIANG! this uncle.. damn buay zi dong seh.. this bangla was slping narh, this uncle got this BIG BIG bag he carrying behind.. den arh, when he sit down, his FAT bag hit dao the bangla.. uncle keep shift here shift there, make dao him fed up go behind.. suddenly.. i realise a strong stink smell.. den i see the small boi beside me, "gap"ing his nose.. den i think.. is the uncle de feet smell.. hahaha.. he wear sandals + socks.. so stinko narh.. hahhaa~ has been raining the whole day.. really WHOLE dae seh.. hmmm.. hope on thurs don rain.. haha.. shall end, cos i quite lazy post.
im emo @10:27 PM;
im emo @2:30 AM;
Monday, December 18, 2006
im back! lol..
this afternoon.. becos of a PIG! so drag drag drag until quite late den go out.. lol.. im really a gundo narh, HAHA! came out of lift, so this familar figure kind of far away.. so i went.. hmm? with my head sticked out and.. ok, stupid expression.. hahha~ its ben ooi.. lol.. bo bian arh, noe too many ben le.. haha~
ben: 去哪里?
wensx*: 去PS, then 去学校.
ben: O_O!
ok narh, cos i was dressed so shabbily.. until mayb he cant imagine me going PS like tat.. HAHA!
i tot im like so damn late, TAM IS LATER! kns.. so we went PS norh..
den.. go to tat "made with love" shop.. dat shop, i think pian $ one norh, so freaking ex! normal paper nia, $1.10 LEH! ok narh, cannot deny the fact that the paper quality gd, but WORTH? its so damn small narh the size.. =X ok.. tam bought sth there, and i didn..
BLARDY HELL! this couple arh, i think.. SUPER IDIOT NARH! tat guy rite, come bang me.. den keep smiling sae, sorry sorry.. wtf seh.. i think.. he see the 2 words behind me, dats why liddat... MERIDIAN TAEKWONDO! whoa! lol..
we roam ard.. den.. come this jap de "value $2" shop.. haha.. wa piang weh! the stuff is so damn messy narh.. KNS!
ate kfc. and arh.. the 2 of us.. stayed there for 1 hr? lol.. we got SO MUCH to tok.. cos.. wo keep sae lame stuff.. hahahaha!!! den arh, ya.. bo bian, i got training.. so mus 跑路..
i walked damn fast at the linkway from purple line to green line seh.. KNS! i chiong and walk so damn fast arh.. until.. like ppl was like, O_O 赶去投抬.. bud.. eventually.. im still late.. i already bie down le.. bud.. sorry narh.. hahaha~
it was then tat i took out the gift dat tam bought for me.. lol.. very nice, got MY NAME! tats why kan nice.. hahaha~! a pendant + a pair of earrings.. lol.. thansx arh gaL~
got to skool, sir and peishan went: 你知道每个人在等你吗? bud.. didn i chiong over ler ? i REALLY did, how abt those who didn go? arent there the ones at fault TOOO!? ok.. nvm.. i chiong go change narh..
sebas IS BAD! lol.. cos mj got this linkway from the hall there to the LT there de.. den arh is inclined.. STUPID he EVIL SEH! cos.. we cant go track there marh, its locked.. den we run there NEH! 8 rounds..
up + down = 1 round.
can eu imagine how tired we are? lol.. yesh VERY! lol.. run finish still cannot take 5 seh! somemore arh, floor slippery.. tho run down shld be faster than run up, bud cos i scare slip.. so.. i run slowly..
ok, den normal warm ups..
AFTER WHICH! sir is BIAN TAI! pump us, sit up us.. KNS!
5 pushups..
5 situps..
10 pushups..
10 situps..
15 PUSHUPS.. [by then, im tired.]
15 situps..
10 pushups..
10 situps..
5 pushups..
5 situps..
so eu think 他是人吗? NO!!! lol.. i think tkd trainings make us a gd opera singer seh..
gd at.. huh~~~~~~~~~ HAHA! cos arh.. before we change wad we doing rite, i will groan.. ALWAES! lol..
if nort, sae some stupid stuff.. lol.. like..
next week no training liao narh, cos we all die after todae's training, den no one come ler.. =X ok narh, really sometimes not funny narh.. bud at least wun so tired rite? lol..
wa! shocking seh.. i was sweating like dono wad.. then suddenly someone sae..
Amanda: wa shiwen smells gd..
wensx*: o_o..
yijie: ya norh..
wensx*: O_O!! really meh? *smiles..
HAHAHA! ppl sae i smell gd seh.. HAPPIE HAPPIE! hahahaha~ my unique smell.. which cause amanda to recognise me from far..
did kicks.. hmm.. sir wan sychronised de seh.. he crazy.. den he, "ush" den we kick.. machiam like robots in the machine.. some game machine liddat.. hahaha.. den do do do.. aiyah, machine SPOIL LIAO LA! hahahah~
did pattern as usual.. haha.. hmm.. den DISMISSED LE! this is the only thing i like abt sebas~ HAHAHA!
den me and yonghuan, snatched our stuff.. den RUN to toilet.. cos the 7oclock show, todae last epi.. HEHEHE! very fast go out of skool, bud stupid bus.. so slow.. =(
managed to watch half an hr? not bad ler.. DEN ARH! 摆家乐 todae show my FAV theme SEH! lol.. black and white world.. yesh, in shiwen de life, theres only black and white.. haha.. bryan wong, really damn funny narh.. ok tats beside the pt.. haha..
well. think my blog de emo-ness, seem to hab influence other ppl to become emo.. nvm, think of my smile which i hab lost.. haha.. yesh..
came upon to realise.. tat.. it seems tat my emo-MO hao xiang is after midnight jiu hui appear.. machiam reality in cinderella..
tats the real her..
waking up after the beautiful dream..
do accept the her the way she is..
cos.. she doesnt wanna change..
thank you.. :)
im emo @8:18 PM;
on this cold night.. when the rain has jus stopped.. in my room.. alone.. the cold wind jus blow in.. without thinking whether will it hurtt me.. im feeling real down now.. i also donno why.. i cant stand couples on the streets.. is it becos of the failure of the previous dat made me envy the others and await the success of the next? or is it becos, of the success of the previous dat made me think of the failure of the next, dat stop me from entering the next? don like the feel of trying to withstand the coldness of the night.. don like the feel of staying up in such a night like now.. bud.. im afraid.. of accepting.. it has become such a habit to listen to 933 every night.. perhaps tats to subsitute the lost of ur voices at the other end of the phone.. to.. fill the emptiness of my room.. tonight.. the tap jus refuses to close.. bit by bit initially.. tears dripped.. after which the tap spoil.. it simple pour out every litre of tears it has.. im a tap. many didn noe. cant be controlled. cant be switched on / off. it jus flow as and when it wans.. lying flat on the bed.. perhaps its the power of gravity.. the tears in the eyes, jus folo its path down.. leavin behind.. a stream of tears.. the evidence of hurtt. do eu noe why i like black so much?.. cos.. its the exact display of my mood. the tender, gentle look in ur eyes.. is wad i don wanna lose.. the hurting, emo look in my eyes.. is wad i don wanna keep.. URGH!! how i wish i cud shout it out.. tat dae.. during tkd camp, during treasure hunt.. at the beach, i really got the urge to shout.. eventually i didn.. my mind is tired. and my heartt is broken. go away~
im emo @1:08 AM;
Sunday, December 17, 2006
heehee~ yeah! finally.. got a pair of new sneakers.. hmm.. nike.. main colors are like, gold pink brown white.. kind of nice combi of colorsx.. yay! expected, i comb the entire queensway.. didn manage to get sth nicer.. so end up buying the one i saw several weeks ago? with alex. lol. he.. didn complain seh.. not bad not bad~ lol.. he quite a gd shopper.. cos.. go round and round, he only sae, head dizzy.. -.- i swear i really didn wanted to look at clothes de neh.. bud hor.. the clothes stare at me.. den i bo bian.. look yi xia.. =X so.. saw this 2 tops quite nice.. but bought 1. lol. i tell eu arh, i hate those salesgal who think tat their customers are so damn rich narh.. dey keep, 33.90 nia.. i still can give eu 10% discount.. wtf narh.. =Xbought one body stud for my ear.. lol.. bling bling de.. hmm.. den go ikea rot.. lol.. alex is DUMBO! hahaha!! keep using thing to hit me.. KNS! i definitely enjoy going ikea.. COS!!! there`s damn alot of MIRRORS ard.. hahahaha~ den actually wan go eat at there de, bud todae so many ppl at there.. no space at all.. so bo bian narh.. somemore outside raining.. i didn feel like eating fast food.. so suggest hawker.. den went chinatown.. lol.. ate this claypot yu pian mee fen.. WA damn nice narh.. 5 bucks.. lol.. bud is super nice.. lol.. the gong bao tian ji, and.. claypot tian ji zhou, keep tempting me narh.. super ex.. 8 bucks? lol.. EA neh.. lol.. nvm.. wait for some special occasions den i treat myself.. lol.. oh ya.. im so happie tat really got ppl wan lend me his shoulders seh.. hahaha~ thansx ben.. lol.. =O don run away arh, when i wet it with tears and pt? LOL.. tml going out with tam.. YEAH!! long-awaited pressie.. hahahaha~ she mus be feeling pressurized if she reads this.. well.. i shall not be emo todae.. it has been a tiring day for me, afterall.. i rush to my ahma's place after rotting.. i enjoy the feeling of being pampered within ur palms.. jus like the way eu treat ur precious lil stuff.. i really hope that eu can be by my side.. will eu? didn i sae i didn wana be emo? im sorry.. im jus emo shiwen.. cant help it..
im emo @10:23 PM;
Saturday, December 16, 2006
im emo @8:51 PM;
IM DAMN FCUKED UP NOW! super angry with myself.. kns!
jus woke up. happily wanna settle down do hwk, after all my hols left 2 weeks, got so many hols assignment haben really do / start..
of cos, i start off with maths narh.. KNS THE SKOOL NARH! why mus hab self-study chap.. kns! self-study still nvm, the info also not enuff.. IDIOT! hai me, first qn of the tut jiu tio stunned.. really really very fed up narh!!
chem also liddat.. blardy hell notes.. so much missing info.. KNS! organic chem so blardy tough narh~ IDIOT!
i hab been emo-ing for the entire hols seh.. notice tat emo can spread.. can fluence.. my blog is so damn damn emo..
bud tats how i feel wad..
why shiwen mus be alwes smiling, alwaes luffing..
she doesnt need to be rite?
why shiwen mus be alwaes happie..
she can don be rite?
why shiwen mus be alwaes strong..
she also got a weak side..
pls.. the next time eu look at her, tell her tat she don nid to be alwaes happie..
pls.. the next time eu talk to her, tell her tat eu don expect her to be alwaes smiling..
and.. and.. and.. tat eu are able to hold her in ur arms.. for her to cry all she wan..im getting so weird.. stood in front of the mirror.. and simply stare at the gal in it.. sometimes.. when eu wanted so much to keep the eu in memories, eu jus couldnt get the effect of it.. i stare hard at her, and think.. are eu really me? began wad i alwaes do.. zipai~ =X its jus a way to keep me.. bud i jus cant grasp the feel tat i wan.. is loving urseelf a mistake? wth m i doing.. -.- divert so seriously seh, shldnt i be mugging my hwk? why i take out my cam and start zipai! tats so dumbo seh.. time for lunch =X shall upload the pics later =X!
im emo @12:39 PM;
Friday, December 15, 2006
todaes a busy dae in skool. from 10 to 6+? HAIYO! jus to do up some boards and banners from recruitment.. me and yijie are in charge of the board narh.. hmmm, and ben cha yi jiao and help us up.. lol.. i wud sae, the board damn nice in the combination of colors. lol.. hands are hurting, back is suaning.. and.. ya, fingers very painful.. BUD! satisfied seh.. hahaha.. realised.. ppl really treat me like a guy.. lol.. donno why.. hmm.. esp to the boys in class.. do i really act like a boy? -.- i wear skirt wad.. sigh.. looking at ur shoulders as eu left.. became to feel a sense of loneliness.. one tat has nvr occurred before.. the kind of jealousy.. the kind of love.. the kind of care.. i jus wanna noe who`s on ur mind? am i the one..? i jus wanna be shiwen..
im emo @8:03 PM;
Thursday, December 14, 2006
突然有感而发..
我就像那被遗弃的玩具..
在一个没人发现的角落哭泣..
我就像那被舍弃的纸巾..
在一个没人爱的垃圾堆抽泣..
我就像那被丢弃的水瓶..
在一个没人注意的小溪泣诉..
我就像那被利用的胶布..
在一个没人知道的废墟饮泣..
[我就像那一把火.. =X 无聊! ]
在那喜皮笑脸下的我,
那只是种伪装..
那只是个面具..
我只是在掩饰..
掩饰着那在眼里打转的眼泪..
我沉默不语..
用我的双眼俯瞰世界..
用我的双耳聆听心声..
用我的鼻子闻尽芳香..
用我的嘴巴尝尽美食..
用我的心了解每个你..
我是没人要的诗雯..
im emo @11:51 AM;
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
oh ya. forget to post this ytd. ytd when i came home, KNS seh.. that blardy bus driver, flirt with me seh -.- abt 20+ malay~ driver: last min flag huh?wensx*: cant see the bus..driver: eu lucky i wait seh.. wensx*: ... driver: eu student huh?wensx*: ya.driver: not married huh?wensx* -.-driver: jk narh.. todae.. went ah ma hse.. feeling a lil down.. on my way back.. saw someone unexpected.. 我们比陌生人还要陌生.. quietly, i stare in space. hoping tat eu hab some actions, and eu didn. jus sat there.. next to my seat.. the short dist, seems so far so far.. i was thinking to myself, perhpas eu didn see me.. bud.. take a step back.. that`s eu.. one who don take note of ppl ard eu.. on the short journey home, it seems like a torture.. tears drop.. bit by bit.. i dry them with my hands.. before i left, i passed a note to her. with the chi phrase above. i swear i didn look back. cos i didn wan to! bud.. secretly, tears fall again.. i don wanna be strong anymore.. as i slowly walk home.. i cant stand anymore.. i break down.. tears, uncontrolled, fall.. this is us. tot silence can mean everything. i didn bring my hp out todae. she msged me, saying she didn noe i was there and i shld hab cal her. well.. tho im jus beside her, she didn notice my presence. she didn~ jus like mondae, i was on the bus and she is at the busstop, she was looking ard.. bud.. jus didn manage to see me.. tats how lil i meant to her~ i don hab a position to call her. i dont. im jus a stranger. 我们比陌生人还要陌生..
im emo @9:23 PM;
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
MJ TKD CAMP! YEAH IM BACK!!! todae will hab long long post..
this is taken on sundae. my last meal at home before going for camp. im eating alone, bud dono why why why the hell got so many ingredients for me to "pei" rice..
then.. went to bed at 1am. bud CANT SLP. too used to 3+am. =X den.. flip until 2+ slp.. woke at 7? lol. seriously lack of slpp~
while on the bus, jus one stop away. i saw her. i think she didn see me. in my amusing position. with pokey-s and luggage..
im dumb la.. im holding 2 BIG pack of pokey on my lap.. den the bus turn, i let go the pokey to hold the railing -.- den hit dao ppl KNS! 0.0
started off with goal setting. well, my goal for being a memner in tkd, is to bring about LOUD LAUGHTERS to everyone.. when i wrote it, everyone was like, DIAO? den.. peishan ask me, are eu sure eu wan tat in ur testimonial? why nort? she asked for sth creative wasnt it? this is constructive.. tats a really tough job.. its not only being a clown.. its not easy to bring about laughters.. cos..
1. nid communicating skills.
2.humorous
3. create ambience
4. and also, well-accepted by everyone. [ not saying im well accepted, bud wan to be~ ]
xia si ren.. -.-
started some icebreakers game.. to kill time actually..
who took the pic OF ME!?!
they mus be the ones..
was playing the.. everyone`s fav phrase? and mine was...
"IDIOT LAH!!" =X
this is a complicated game. lol. shall not explain. =X running abt.. snatching seats..? 5ppl snatch 4 seats? butt vs butt big match. 
den got forfeit.. nvm abt the 2 gays.. tats their forfeit.. lol..
after which played.. the.. cannot-say-this word game.. not really easy to get the opp to sae.. well, cos.. we played in grps den the members of the other grp, hint like dono wad shit narh.. my grp nvr.. so we keep kena -.- PLAY CHEAT! =x
had discussion on cny and expose~ ok boring.. so i sneaked out with the excuse of tabao lunch.. =] cos.. IM THE KITCHEN MASTER.. haha.. me, june, amir.. june and i are full of crap.. tho cannot rmb got wad stupid stuff.. lol!
OHOH! got self defense lesson.. which caused all my achings NOW! learn breakfall which is to prevent eu from hurting more impt parts when falling like the spine? abit nia narh, TOUGH! got once, i PIAK, right on the front seh.. damn PAINFUL NORH! den still got self defense norh.. wad gals can do against guys?
didn do flipping over. jus mere tricks though, some failed on guys. the feel of practicing with june and the guys is completely different narh.. the strength so much different.. some really completely useless seh =X
went for changi village to eat.. stingray + shui kuay + sugarcane drink + chao kway tiao.. yeah tats whad i ate.. =X guilty.. hahahahaha~~ no gays. tho alot of army boys, like nvr see gal before, stare like dono wad shit.. KNS!
jenson came, hmmm.. welll.. hab some mini farewell session for him.
go back skool, bathe.. LOL. 4 gals - june me valerie and peishan. bathe in the same toilet, 4 diff cubicle.. lol.. den arh, tok alot of stuff while bathing.. i was first to finish. didn wan to wait for them, so went out.. and REALISE to my HORROR!! we tok damn loudly, until outside can hear damn clearly narh.. our conver, shall be censored here.. lol..
den arh.. the rest of the gals haben finish bathing.. gals arh.. haiyo!! =X lol. only me, den go to the boys room narh.. play uno, play dai dee, play poker.. soon, everyone came, den watch some stupid movie, dat cause me to so much wan fall aslp..
wensx*: pokey pls~
wensx*: i wan ma, i wan mie.. i wan mammie NARH! [the snack =/]
so.. we eat and eat and eat.. to preevent myself from slping.. on ben`s slping bag and drooling all over.. lol.. i know i was damn tired narh, TOO HIGH LIAO~ =X
movie finish, the rest of the gals went bridging.. lol..den me june val nvr go back yet.. val slept, and we play all kinds of stupid games.. i also dono wad those games called narh..
got one huh, super dumb lol.. mus replace yr name wit another name.. can be ppl name, country name, drinks wadeva la.. according to the themes.. i was "june, pig, commonwealth, KL, jiajia liangteh.." lol.. alot.. den arh, they very horrible de norh, find those chim chim name.. hear also nvr hear before..
BEN NARH, his animal name - i call it, ah-ma-di-no? hahaha~
JUNE, her drink de name - dark chocolate - sth sth.. lol..
aiyah tho tried to use those many syllabus names, usually they are the ones being memorised.. lol.. bud, got one, very superb.. china apple juice -.- june alwaes fail to cal tat..
june: cai cai china ......
azmall: cai china ORANGE juice.. -.-
those games were damn fun. make us luff like dono wad la.. =] den ms wong, keep asking us go slp.. and i think the boys also quite tired ba, den we left norh.. when going out rite, me and june were like.. now like very awake seh.. DIE!
ok next scene. we decided to slp on the tables, by joining 6 tgt. lol.. den.. WA PIANG, cos cannot put the table properly side by side, den got SO MANY HOLES NARH.. den slp until so uncomfortable, BUD june damn fast narh.. slp ler.. and everyone sound aslp, except for the poor shiwen..
it was past 2 and she couldnt get into bed, flip the entire night.. everytime when she was abt to doze off, sth will interupt her.. like.. pammie`s msg..? the stypid cricket outside.. + the slping bag kind of warm, den if whole body inside damn hot, bud if don use, DAMN COLD! so i half body in half body out -.-
3am, 4am, 5am.. slowly VERY slowly.. i was half awake narh, like.. nvr slp dao.. until 6am.. finally buay tahan.. go outside sit.. realise, the skool has nvr look so peaceful to me.. the morning air was real fresh.. esp with a patch of grass infront.. everything feels like, it doesnt matters.. really doesnt matter..
the games ic, damn bad. hahaa.. skip PT~ go pasir ris park to prepare and all..
wait damn long for them to come narh. kns. den the spot where me and ben were at, was occupied by some taichi ah pek~ haha..
tats a caterpillar -.-
HAHA! played twisters.. den some post really damn tiring.. i shldnt hab wear shorts... shld hab wore bermudas seh..
here are some stupid pose.. lol.. by june and ben~ + yingta.
den went to the beach dere, the next station.. tho game ic, walk very very short dist.. bud players walk damn far.. =X budden~ aiyah.. i admit narh.. is i "design" it to be like tat.. hahaha.. im the mastermind =X!! bud bud BUD! mus emphasize, is ben accept it de. =P
ben: wa 好绝好绝..
bud 还不是 eu accept de.. lol.. 
the evildoers of the camp. lol 
ppl cant stand me seh.. lol.. zilian~ =X treasure hunt.. finished with with me and june, doing some stupid post.. hmm.. kap small ball with the chin.. lol.. we walked like couple.? lol.. and after tat i run into the water.. lol.. val was buried in the sand.. only she sporting seh.. tho i don mind also la, budden.. =X aiyah game ic don play la..
when mac for lunch.. hmm.. stupid games again.. =X
1 2 *clap* 4 5 *clap 7 8 *clap* 10 11 *clap* *clap* 14 *clap..
mus replace every multiple of 3 with a clap, and with a 3 de number?
peishan really very scary narh.. can luff damn loudly.. she HA HA HA HA until the whole mac went silence.. and look at her.. HORRIBLE seh.. so scary..
being so sweaty and stinko.. once we got back to the skool, me and june CHIONG for the bath.. lol.. budden also no one snatch with us narh.. cos most of the gals, don wan bathe -.- den wan bridge~ crazy~ lol..
after tat, gather tgt.. play game again.. i wasnt really interested.. cos im out of batt ler.. somemore, headache.. slpt for a short while.. bud was woken up by.. june! she went "The PRESTIGE~" den she kick kick the table, den i HUH wad?! -.-
everything ended..with a rainbow =] and here`s my reflection..
habing to spend like near 40 hours with ur frens in a camp like this.. let me learn to take care of ppl in a way or another.. like, june.. dono how to tc of herself one.. sae change clothes jiu change de..
it also shows how this person can don like tat person.. small conflicts here and there.. tat`s life la.. meeting ppl of diff char.. eu jus hab to learn to accept, or if nort, reject..
thou many stupid games were played.. bud it has succeed in bonding..
first time be camp organiser, hmm.. got to think of some stupid games tat can wei nan ppl.. hahaha.. quite fun.. =X den.. also, tot of how to manage the money.. and mus juggke between halal and non-halal food.. it`s not easy to prepare food for pple seh.. diff ppl, got diff preferences.. so don complain~ somemore got BUDGET! not easy seh..~
hao ba, MJ TKD rocks? =] hope everyone has enjoyed it.. the games, the food, everyone.. ? and.. the upcoming expose.. hope we will be able to clinch sth gd.. these are our memories tgt.. tho its like unlikely to hab another camp ler ba..
the sun don like me.. burn me..=(
im emo @11:26 PM;
HAHAHA! 我是自拍GRANDMASTER lol! tho back from camp very tired, my mum pangseh me to go PP. den left me outside at the stairs. so.. the boring me, took out the cam and take pics until the batt is FLAT! =/
for ppl with weak <3, pls refrain from looking.
for ppl who jus ate, pls prepare paper bag.
smile~
hmm?
我要亲亲~
open eyes bigger narh, so small~
look at how comfortable im sitting.
=.= looks like?
heehee~
eh?
来吧, 亲一个..
emo + fear looking
shag
oh?
wad m i thinkin abt?
O_O !
twistt twist~
punch eu seh~
sadd sadd
why hair liddaat, i also dono..
cover mouth narh~
DIAM NARH!
STOP! don go away~
this is nice. =]
dono whad i thinking abt narh -.-
FISHballbalL~
wth~ =X
...
im so lonely.. 
the nvr-fails-to-scare look 
peeping~ 
kiss kiss hp~ 
做莫? 
dreaming narh.
BLEHSX!
ok, clear up ur vomit and blood, wipe ur saliva away.. lol.. hahahaah~ tats why i sae, IM zipaiGRANDmaster.. after that.. cos, cam no batt, and my mum is back. so end of story. lol.
im emo @10:49 PM;
黑与白..
jusx wanna be alone..
huh?
see wad see!
做嚒?
